I need some narcotics....

I know I am erroneous this time…I know the truth should come out…but I am tied…am pulled back….bound to my ethics….. bound to self pity…forced by nature to falter every time I try the other way….things are getting messed up by the day….can’t help it…I am sorry….sorry for my self…. sorry for them…sorry for all those whom I have victimized…..the lunacy in me craves to come out in the open…the madness cries out to be unmasked every moment….the insanity yearns to be revealed……...it only asks for a better audience…I need help…..