Tuesday, October 21, 2008

The climate's getting cold already…..it's past mid-October….. the wintry weather chills are busy flaunting the 1st signs of its advent by now. My feet feel cold at night n a light blanket is hurled up on my bed all the time nowadays (much to my ma’s revulsion cz she feels its still balmy enuf!!!.....*sigh!!). The ceiling fan's become pregnantly slothful now…..moving slowly…..dragging itself…..as if watching its bearing solicitously …I can practically see d individual blades of the fan stirring. Coolers and air-conditioners gather dust (dad’s electricity bills get saved every winter, n that means an extra family outing each month…..*thrills*!!!)….....Standing in d balcony... late at night....I witness the entire city sleeping placidly in front of my sleepless eyes..... the 1st frigid winds just pass by....with no apologies....with no hurriedness…touching haphazardly …. n like a stolen 1st kiss…it leaves me craving for more….for more of that chilly numbness in a not-so-chilly night….. Well, anyway, I have a grim hitch in life. N dat is….I have become insomniac….yesterday I had to toss n turn nearly all night….slumber finally dawned at 5!!!….staring blankly at the blank ceiling above….hearing undersized creatures strike against the miniature incandescent night lamp high up on the wall….car horns blaring past in the roads outside……..fleet of trucks rumbling away….emergency sirens in a far-off factory somewhere….the sounds distracting me till the crack of dawn …at times suffocating…but invariably gifting me dark circles n a dreadful mood the very next morning…… (PS:. You think I managed to write a shorter post here????)

11 comments:

Bikramjit said...

Insomniac????Then try and stop thinking abt those things which has left you in such a condition.It's hard but is it really impossible???

Ipsita said...

@bikramjit-*sigh!!!

Saim said...

cold,u sure u talking of Cal:D
insomnia...welcum 2 d club dear:)
happy sleepless nyts:D

Ipsita said...

@comfortably numb- its nt cal buddy...asansol(d name sounds unheard??)....n thnx 4 such a warm welcum.... *wink*...

Anonymous said...

don't know WHAT...
dont't know WHEN...
don't know HOW...
don't know WHY...
but al that boils down to...that you are in a serious problem...my mom says dat problems cut down to half and happiness gets doubled when shared...donno about the last...but i'm prtty sure of the
1st one...so if u wish to share i'm there as a frnd...!

Anonymous said...

i hv a lotttttttt 2 talk .....but none 2 hear...dunno how 2 start...
but yes over d last 5 yrs i hv gathered drops of blood n tear to fortify the inner spirit n face d truth....even d 2nds pointer in a wallclock fails to escape it's shadow(past)...we human being make d biggest mistakes of our lyf even b4 our dream nourishes...and being hasty in evry deed get misinterpreted! wanna leave all sort of pains, losses n sufferings aside and live lyf 2 the fullest...WANNA KNOW U
WANNA LEARN U
WANNA FEEL U
bcause u know 1 thing, our mind is lyk a trasnparent piece of glass...when new n young we can peek into our soul to know what we wan't...but with the drift of age and our surrounding savage world whose toxic ideas leave scars and scratches on the glass piece....we ar left unknown 2 ourselves........

Anonymous said...

Well again IPSITA i'm here,scribbling colums 4 u only....
I don't know what keeps u away from responding...but I fear the reason to be FALSE RUMOURS...while moving on this fast-track world i hv made numerous enemies...there are plenty of anti-elements in d air in between to distort my image,views n philosophy..tried hard to get in direct touch with u but all in vain...recently one of d rumours in d air came to my ears...and I was completly shocked to hear it...newayz do u know why I'm relating all these things to u..ONLY BECAUSE YOU MATTER A LOTTTTT FOR ME...orkut is not a good medium ...there are sycopants who will surely spoil the entire picture about me...i fear to lose U...bcause I CARE FOR U...i'm terribly desperate to exchange words with u but despite of numerous scraps n comments I fell that I'm knoking on the walls to ooze out water!

Anonymous said...

Won't u even speak with ME??????
Won't u lyk 2 know what's d TRUTH?????
Won't u lyk 2 hear the UNHEARD????
Won't u lyk 2 see the UNSEEN??????
Over the years I hv gathered dry leaves 2 lit a fire...once in a lyf time I hv gathered strengh 2 speak with U...well a commner sees a thing in a conventional way since he is endowed with thoughts of flatter trajectories n can't see well above the barrier...well I assume that u ar not a commoner and hv enough wisdom to estimate what might hv happened to me...moaning n lamenting never stops...well it's a wound oozing blood spontaneously...none to heal n none to ask...left un nursed , left open ...my futile pursuit to shake hands seems never ending...yet again a pulsation dominates the inner soul and may be i'll try my level best to ensure that u know the truth...because for u it may be just a PAST TRUTH...BUT FOR ME IT IS THE WAY OF LIVING THE TRUTH...IT IS NOW THE ULTIMATE OBJECT OF MY LIFE!

Anonymous said...

Won't u even speak with ME??????
Won't u lyk 2 know what's d TRUTH?????
Won't u lyk 2 hear the UNHEARD????
Won't u lyk 2 see the UNSEEN??????
Over the years I hv gathered dry leaves 2 lit a fire...once in a lyf time I hv gathered strengh 2 speak with U...well a commner sees a thing in a conventional way since he is endowed with thoughts of flatter trajectories n can't see well above the barrier...well I assume that u ar not a commoner and hv enough wisdom to estimate what might hv happened to me...moaning n lamenting never stops...well it's a wound oozing blood spontaneously...none to heal n none to ask...left un nursed , left open ...my futile pursuit to shake hands seems never ending...yet again a pulsation dominates the inner soul and may be i'll try my level best to ensure that u know the truth...because for u it may be just a PAST TRUTH...BUT FOR ME IT IS THE WAY OF LIVING THE TRUTH...IT IS NOW THE ULTIMATE OBJECT OF MY LIFE!

Sunday, October 26, 2008 12:17:00 PM IST

Anonymous said...

wish u subho bijoya and happy diwali IPSITA.....
DEBAJYOTI

..resurrected said...

Oh God!! Meyeta sick hoye porchhe, cheer up, swthrt..........