The sunrise is much brighter today n am feeln convincingly cheerful. I got a dedication frm a certain sum1 who mailed me a song sung by him n m basking in self-gory nw. I even got this much needed “u r beautiful” msg early in the morning n that’s making me feel beautiful all over again!!!!.....Yesterday midnight I heard the church bells ringing…Its Christmas 2day n the joyful festive spirit has jammed me too. I wished God a very happy birthday but got an unvoiced acknowledgement in return!!!...it actually feels gr8 when u talk 2 God…I used to do it everyday in school. We had a chapel in school n every morning I was spotted inside, knelt down, head bowed, hands joined, eyes closed n face animated with my sorry’s n thank you’s ……Things have changed nowadays…..I go 2 d temple only when exams are near or when I have special favours 2 ask from Him….*selfished with tym*....no wonder the favours are never granted now.....*sigh!! During my childhood day’s Christmas was spent wid granpa n santa claus dolls, Christmas trees, over prized big Christmas stars n Christmas spcl chocolate pastries. The old man used 2 take me 2 d nearby church n both of us would have badam bhaja n phuchka sessions soon afterward. The days have passed away and so has grandpa,but today, years after the church going ritual has ended, m really missing everything........... the plum cakes, the green shiny Christmas trees, the red glittery Christmas stars, the small bells golden n silver colored, grandpa’s eyes on seeing my childish euphoria ………everythn..... Neway, I have loads of stuff 2 do 2day. Have frnds 2 visit, places 2 go n then a family dinner somewhere. Merry Christmas 2 everybody….