Things have distorted a lot lately. Not that I can carp about whatever happened, but any sort of alteration is deplorable at the onset. Hope I get used 2 the whole thing soon. Relaxing at home with Christmas cakes, dark chocolates n hot coffee helps 2 take away depression a lot . I have gifted myself this giant teddy n christened it Bruno. He’s cute, brown, pink ribboned, all smiles n an unwearied listener 2 all my grousing every nw n then. D other day I bought 2 new pairs of shoes n got these complementary foot sores as a souvenir from them. Thus m forced 2 limp about the entire house without slippers n d chilly floor is killing me. This lonesomeness is killing me as well. I need 2 call up a few frnds of mine but m delaying it indefinitely. It was all my slipup n now I dnt understand how to face them. Cant I ask 4 forgiveness??? m really sry 4 my conduct. I hv got my much needed reality check n m ready 2 go dwn on my knees begging 4 clemency. Although I doubt if P will b ready 2 gv a 2nd chance…...*heartbroken*…. On d brighter side of things all my differences wid T has been sorted n I feel relieved nw!!! We’ve promised never 2 fight again n I hv learnt that promises r not made 2 b broken....well...d harder way. hmmm......one frnd gained is many frnds lost?????....*trembles*….I have never wondered how the world works, never thought why winters cum n summers go, never questioned why we hope n why we hallucinate…never conjectured why we cry in happiness n sorrow alike…..but simpler things disturb me more….. Why do ppl fight even when all of them are at fault???? Why do things go wrong even if the ppl r right???? Why do frnds luv 2 hate n hate to luv each other???? Why do we crib n nag n humiliate one another this much???? Why are our words misread n actions misinterpreted every time n every where????……why?? why?? N why???....*sigh*….lyf is a litany of evils…..need 2 grow horns soon 2 understand this impish existence of ours….